My user name is symbolic of me. I have a lot of hidden sorrows but I'm an optimist after all is said and done. I'm looking for that silver lining after the darkest storms and I know it's there. And sometimes the silver lining will cover the whole cloud and that's all that will meet the eye.
However, I've been uncomfortable dealing with my darker side and also I've been very uncomfortable and ashamed sharing it with others and sometimes even admitting it to myself. I've repressed a lot of things and have been more comfortable presenting the silver lining side to the world. It's been painful holding everything inside. EP looks like a great place where I can be myself and perhaps share these darker sides of me with other understanding people who have been through the same thing. And that was why I created this profile. I will be focusing on my darker more charged issues here, just expressing them at the very least.
After I do that, I can always take something positive from my darker experiences. I hope to become more comfortable with my shadow side here so I can heal what needs to be healed and become happier and really enjoy my silver lining. I love the idea of transforming darkness into light, and I see the silver lining as a goal for myself.