The Beginning Of The End"I dont care what you feel like, youve got to work"
That was after I was rear ended on the highway by a car doing more than 60 mph and I was stopped. My back and neck were really messed up though I di walk away from the accident. My job is very physically demanding and I couldnt take the pain I was experienceing. For a few weeks I had been in and out of the doctors and they wanted me to do some rehab and go on muscle relaxers and pain medication. The ensuing fight brought out a less than sympathetic nature in my wife and that response. All I di was walk away. Right out of the house and very nearly left.
It broke me, whatever problems we had up to that point were eclipsed by the mushroom cloud of that bomb. Gone. My faith, my heart, my will. Replaced by bitterness, depression and the realization that I was a paycheck. The meal ticket. If their were tears that night I dont remember. Certainly Ive had none for her or our marriage since then. Just maintaining what I could for our kids.
Deanze 41-45, M 50 Responses 9 Jul 17, 2010