My Mom Said This Once, But That Was All It Took
"I never loved you, I don't really care about what happens to you. I never wanted you in the first place, you were such a huge mistake. If I could live my life again I would never have had you. You are worthless and no one will ever love you because you're s**t and no one loves f***ing s**t. No one would care if you died. No one will ever care."
I was 10 years old, she left 3 years later and I never saw her again. I can't remember much about her, but these are her exact words, burned into my brain. When I turned 16 I used them as motivation to run away from my father who sexually abused me. Now, when I think of them, I know my mother didn't love me, but I AM something and people DO loved me and would care if I died, I am NOT a worthless piece of s**t.