I Promise

 first off i'm a firm believer of things happen for a reason.  there are things i naturally would tell myself not to do but then I look at the outcome down the road and even though it was terrible at the time in the end something wonderful came out of something terrible... so i'm a little conflicted.

I would say this:

my biggest warning so i'm going to yell it at you.

DO NOT IN ANY WAY SHAPE OR FORM LISTEN TO YOUR MOTHER EVER ABOUT ANYTHING EVER.  STOP TRYING TO GET HER TO LOVE YOU BECAUSE IT WON'T HAPPEN UNTIL YOUR MID TWENTIES SO GIVE UP YOU WILL BE A LOT SAINER. 

never be alone in a room with any of your siblings. EVER.

I know you will do this anyways but fasting will not make you a better person.  not eating doesn't make you pretty.  the person next to you will not die if you don't chew each bite 33 times (you have OCD)

Tell your daddy not to go to Africa. Beg him if you have to.  If he goes... well you will find out why I said it.  

If he still goes. Even though he is gone, he didn't leave you on purpose.  Don't hate God for it.  Don't hate your mother for it either.  Don't hate him for it.  When your mother talks about him after he dies leave the room.  She is lying.

just because he sleeps with you doesn't mean he cares about you or loves you.  get over it. you won't find anyone who loves you until your mid twenties. until then enjoy sex for what it is... sex.

DO NOT GET CREDIT CARDS.  and ALWAYS have health insurance.

Never rely on your mother... for anything.  the woman could kill a cactus.

please don't kid yourself. you are who you are and you are not perfect. you will never be perfect (because believe it or not no one is). Promise me you will not try to live up to unreal expectations when you are 18-20 after everything you will go through these will be the WORSTE and most LONELY years of your life if you don't just live and be who you are.  God is great hunny but you are no saint (still a good girl but not a saint) remember that.

Love a boy named daniel with all your heart he won't hurt you so don't be so scared when you meet him.  

Be more ambitious when someone brings you a business proposal in your early 20's.

i love you... so keep in mind you find peace one day... I promise. 

 

 

sacredvision sacredvision
18-21, F
2 Responses Feb 22, 2009

hahaha the mother part took me 20 years to figure out

Girl, there is no way I could have said it any better, expecially the mother part.