On The Side Of Medication

I have been in medication for over a months now due to Clinical Depression or Clinical Anxiety, as what my doctor says. She gave two kinds of medicines for me to in take; first here was Xanor and LExapro. I take xanor in order to uplift and stop me from thinking too much, while lexapro is still on its way to work. Lexapro has two weeks before it takes effects, this is why, for that two weeks xanor is needed. I cant help but to take this medication, even though I know its effect on my health side. I cant help it, especially when your thinking started to manipulate your day to day life. This two medicines are my friends, and wishing God to let this two works for me. Yet even though I use this, it cant help myself from thinking of negative thinking, but it do lessen my suicidal thought.

Just recently, by doctor diagnosed me having an OCD or Obsessive Compulsive Disorder which I was shocked by her findings, which confuses me about the real problem I have. However, I am really in great trouble now.