I Still Remember, Please, Forgive Me....I Cannot Forget.

My husband and I used to dance to this song, years ago, when the dinosaurs walked the earth.
It was "our" song for a time and now when I reflect on that period of my life, I always feel like crying.
What happened to that girl and that boy who loved one another so much? Where did they go??

Did his heart beat faster when I entered a room, like mine did when he entered one? Does he remember, the way I remember??

It still feels like our first night together
Feels like the first kiss and
It's gettin' better baby
No one can better this
I'm still hold on and you're still the one
The first time our eyes met it's the same feelin' I get
Only feels much stronger and I wanna love ya longer
You still turn the fire on

So If you're feelin' lonely.. don't
You're the only one I'd ever want
I only wanna make it good
So if I love ya a little more than I should

Please forgive me I know not what I do
Please forgive me I can't stop lovin' you
Don't deny me

This pain I'm going through
Please forgive me
If I need ya like I do
Please believe me
Every word I say is true
Please forgive me I can't stop loving you
Still feels like our best times are together
Feels like the first touch

We're still gettin' closer baby
Can't get close enough I'm still holdin' on
You're still number one I remember the smell of your skin
I remember everything
I remember all your moves
I remember you
I remember the nights ya know I still do

One thing I'm sure of
Is the way we make love
And the one thing I depend on
Is for us to stay strong
With every word and every breath I'm prayin'
That's why I'm sayin'...


OnlyOneChiquita OnlyOneChiquita
41-45, F
8 Responses Jul 20, 2010

*Rolls eyes* Yes, sir.

The id only wants, the ego has to deal with it... like I said before, you can still have the fairytale, you just don't get the whole book at once, just a few pages at a time. <br />
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The next time you awake in the middle of the night and are contented to just lie there with him next to you and listen to his breathing, think to yourself "I just got another page from the fairytale". Now turn that pout into a smile, young lady!

My logical mind knows that, but my immature, strong willed, spoiled rotten mind rejects it and demands to get what it wants (all while stomping it's feet and throwing a tantrum, I might add.) <br />
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He often accuses me of behaving as if I am royalty and I am quick to remind him that he is responsible for creating this monster before him....lol...<br />
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Thanks, FKA.......*pouts*.....I know you're right, but I still want the fairytale.

We as humans simply can't sustain the high level of energy that the fairytale requires. But there are many wonderful things to be said for "comfortable". Isn't it a beautiful feeling, snuggling under the covers on a cold winter night, listening to the freezing rain pound a rhythm to the signing of the gale; and there you are, warm and comfortable. It's not a fairytale, but it could easily be a scene from one.

Thank you , Shep....you are a very wise woman. I have so much respect and admiration for you and your feedback as well. <br />
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What you say makes a great deal of sense, I am just being impatient, as usual, I suppose.<br />
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Thank you once again, milady!

Lots of questions and answers are hard to find! Our lives are changing all the time. Our perception of our lives needs to change too. We fall in love and the world is before us. Twenty-five years later, children have been born, homes have been purchased, lives are being lived and then, what's next? There is definitely a gray area during this time of life where we seem confused about what's next for us. All the "high points" seem to have been reached and we long for that excitement we felt once more.<br />
I think this is such a normal feeling of restlessness while we try to find our next goal. Just hang on because there's lots of changes coming with the advent of children leaving the nest. It will take lots of energy and strength to continue toward this goal but when it does arrive, there is a real sense of accomplishment and starting a new life for yourselves. You're just a little premature in your searching as you still have years to go but I think your just experiencing some of that yearning for the "next phase".of life! I think a lot of woman will be able to relate to how you feel. Probably lots of men too. I hope this helps!

You make some very valid points, Iamstillrighthere.<br />
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I guess in 25 years of marriage, I never grew up...lol...it was a fairytale then and I still want that fairytale, because I still view him as my prince Charming. *sigh*<br />
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Thanks for reading and commenting, love. I appreciate it.

Ahhhh, the cloud 9 feeling that keeps you grinning from ear to ear. you cant contain your feelings about the person anywhere. But soon the world has its evil way, our hearts were blinded, love went astray (Ozzy Osbourne-Changes) . for the life of me, i cant understand why love doesnt just stay?<br />
i still love my husband. i will always. but the tolls of life just wear you down. after the 9 on the cloud goes away, you are grateful that you still are on the cloud. and you can only hope you stay on the cloud. anybody agree?<br />
i guess i got lucky this time. i am still there on the cloud. we are hanging on. talking and communication is the key. sucking it up is a key. agreeing when u want to scream, or just listening when you want to or try to talk is a key. and of course having their back at all times and being the back bone when its your turn. AND then still being able to be on the cloud? thats gotta be love. of course sometimes i feel like i dont know my ownself and sometimes i feel like i am my only friend (that part from red hot chile peppers) anywya, enough outta me. happy day everyone