I'm not a christian nor a catholic, in fact i'm not part of any religion. I wan't born into a religious family, I think they're anit religious, and I spent years believing that you really didn't exist. Then there was a phrase when I was about 10 where I used to talk to you in my head and I always felt as if you were listening. I spoke to you all the time about everything and you must have found it tedious at times. I always felt there was a presence and that there really was someone listening. I was always filled with warmth after I had spoken to you. and then I slowly I stopped Praying, I stopped talking to you as I grew older. i've never been to church, i've never read the bible. I don't know the laws of religion or the rituals. When I was about `15 I was questioning life and began to believe you were there. I was old enough to make my own decisions and did not follow my parents belief. I did believe in you and once I tried to go to church. I wasn't allowed to be blessed because I wasn't a member of the church, I walked out feeling guilty and ashamed, did believe in you but I was never christianed, I started praying again, but I never really feel like I should be doing it because I'm not a member of a church or religion. I love God and the things that he has taught people about love, and kindness and goodness. I'm sorry that I didn't believie in you at one point in my life... i'm sorry for those times when I cursed you for the things that went wrong in my life. I'm glad for the way that you made me, it has taught me so much, I like being a little different from everyone. It has taught me the values of life, of friendship, of looking beyond looks, everything.
Thank you God,
I'm sorry I'm not part of any religion, and I hope that one day I will be. i'm scared that because I haven't joined a part of your group that i wont be considered worthy enough to go to Heaven. They say those people that aren't chrisitan or catholic ot whatever will be condemmed to hell. Does that include me? I do believe in you, but is this enough...