I Think I Know

I'm no pendeja, I may act like one, but I am not completely stupid.

I have a pretty good grasp of what's wrong with me.

But implementing change, pushing myself to be accepting of who I am is difficult, and most of the time I rather not bother.

I am insecure.

So insecure that I am barely functioning.

That's my problem, the self loathing as a result. The lack of attention, lack of affection growing up adds to these insecurities.

I should change this, I should. BUT it's more complex than that, and the layers of fears pile on one another. And all that is rational is thrown out the window when I get down.

But yeah..
CrazyHippieChick CrazyHippieChick
Feb 16, 2011