I Want to Know Why I Always Attract the Crazy People

I Was Always a Sucker. Part 1 Draft 1

By: WarriorMom

Written on October 18th, 2008

I felt bad for the kids at school or the ones in the neighborhood who wasn't part of the group. So I would pull them in, but if that didn't work, I would still befriend them. They would turn out to be good friends.

As I got older, I was in a whole different crowd of people. For whatever reason, I would gravitate toward the men you wouldn't want to bring home to meet the folks. But it sure put some excitement into my life. And as I stepped out of the drug world, I somehow still found the men that needed help, love and understanding and everything will be OK. Only problem is, it never worked out that way.

I went through many relationships until I realized I need to take care of myself, not someone else. So my new journey began. Down into the darkness, where there was no light to see. I would stumble over someone or something and fall, then find a way to stand back up. I could only go forward, there was no going back. I reached into the darkness not knowing what was ahead. I could hear the pebbles tumble forward as I was finding my way. I took a deep breath when the oxygen was thining. A repugnant odor filled my nostrils and I found myself crawling on the cold moist floor.

To Be Continued.

By: WarriorMom

Age: 51-55 , Female

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WarriorMom

LOLOLOLOLOLOLOLOLOLOLOLOLOLOLOLOLOLOLOLOLO

LOVE YA TOO!

Oct 19, 2008
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WarriorMom

Thanks Librastar, that is what I ment to imply. If I give away everything I have, I would have nothing more to give. So by being good to myself, I then have something to give to others. And for me,it's still a struggle not being able to practice this princable, but it is the gving I want to do. If I already love myself, accept myself with all that I am, I'm not dependent on those who can't give me what I need. But this is how it works for me.

Oct 19, 2008
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Librastar

You sound like a very giving person who would rather give than receive. I am the same way, but my problem is I have shut the world out because I grew tired of helping everyone. I am just now starting to feel like I can help people again. Keep up your spirits and you will be fine.

Oct 19, 2008
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- tori1164
  I totally relate to your comment, I shut alot of blood suckers out because when I needed some help they weren't anywhere to be found, so I started to help myself. No I select who I can and will help for my own safety.
  
  Feb 9, 2012
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WarriorMom

I Love You Guys!!!!!! I am so grateful we have each other. Besides your the ones who brighten my lights.

Oct 18, 2008
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Tzech

MB that's another part of it too. being so able to understand when someone else is in need because it's always inside us. The two parts combine into and awesome human being that uses themself up too quickly.

Oct 18, 2008
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forceofnature

1st...What do you MEaN CrAzY?...HuH? WhO ArE YoU TaLkInG AbOuT?...Not really, I'm just teasing.

I have always attracted, the somewhat strange, unusual, and the absolute bizarre. (please note...none of the present company is included).

I think our kind hearts, our love and our inner glow sometimes, I believe, draws those really obscure to us like a moth to the fire.

Hang on WM...Your light is getting SOOO bright, when the weirdos come near you, they won't be able to get close..they burn up from the shear heat of your brightness!

Oct 18, 2008
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WarriorMom

Thank you for sharing so openly. That's how us sisters can learn from each other. I know someone in our circle that I believe feels the same way. Me? I'm different, but it would take a chapter to explain this complicated mind so to speak {Smile}

Oct 18, 2008
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boarderline

well you attached yourself to me, and I'm as strange as they come!!!

Oct 18, 2008
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WarriorMom

Tzech: I think that's it in a nut shell.....ooops, and the part about not having to look at myself. lol

bl: we are a like. And thanks.

Oct 18, 2008
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boarderline

We are alike in so many ways. I always had the strange boyfriends.

I look forward to the continuance of this story.

Oct 18, 2008
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Tzech

Oh my. I've picked the needy too. I think (after thhearpy and then enevitable self questioning) that it was because I wanted to be needed. and wanted. Still a hard habit to break.

Oct 18, 2008
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