To be anonymous and have a space to vent when I am depressed and suicidal.
I often feel I have worn out my friends and have no where to go, so I write on here.
I write in a journal too but I like the idea someone might see my pain and cries for help here and I can get support because I know I'm not the only one who struggles in life.
It helps and maybe someone reads some of what I write when I just need comfort or support or to be heard.
I live alone. I have been through serious trauma. I have come a long way. It is a slow process. You go through it alone. :( It is challenging and hard at times.
Counseling isn't enough. Friends aren't enough. I have no family.
I can't just quit feeling. or feeling bad for that matter at times. So here I am in secret.
I want attention but don't want to bother anyone. It is too much of a burden on others. They can only do so much even if they do love you. You are on your own in life. Bottom line.
I like having a place where I can say anything. I don't care if I am ever judged poorly either. I can delete. I'm not looking to be cured. Things don't work that way anyway. I just need love and support and kindness and encouragement. Basic needs. I just had most of my life with no one there for me. So I am wounded. Maybe extra needy or have abandonment issues.. I've been through my share of things anyway
Hoping for brighter days everyday