i never know wether i want a relationship or not!! i either think that i wouldn't be good enough and the woman i was in the relationship with would soon get rid of me, or i reject women as soon as they show any interest in me, cos im scared to get involved with anyone!!! but i still have this kind of human instinct to look for a partner!! but its like i have this monster inside of me, that keeps telling me "NO,your not good enough"!!!