The Day I Chose Not To Be Me

think peaceful mid July evening in  a smaller town. i let the love of my life stay in a place were i knew she was not safe. i didn't argue with her i just said if this is what you want and i left. if i had done what i normally did maybe she would still live here. normally i would have argued the point insisted that she come home, or picked her up and put in the car and let my then boyfriend drive or i would have taken her home and left him there, but for some damned reason i just let her stay. 

i know that she made her own choice and now is sitting in jail because of it. but it is still hard not to blame myself