I Just Want To Vanish

The only thing that gives me any kind of existence, are those who know me in this state. My family, my roommate, that girl. They are the only things that give me any kind of existence. Which is why I want to leave them behind. I want to vanish from the face of humanity. I want to once again have no name. Like I did in college, where I was "The Guy Who Talks to Himself".

Suicide is the reason why. I want to be so astranged from the world that when I finally kill myself no one will find me for weeks. When I am dead it will take months and months for them to track down anyone who knows me. I want to be nothing. I want to live in a dive where a gun shot is an everyday occurance so I can shoot myself.

I am pathetic, because I do not want to leave everything behind to change for the better. I want to go away so I can kill myself and be lost in the annoying sea of statistics. Nothing positive... Nothing worth while...
ForgottenMale ForgottenMale
26-30, M
1 Response Aug 8, 2010

Hey im sorry ur haveing a bad day.<br />
u know im here for u to talk to.<br />
Hugs