Im Leaving My Family

 yes i am depressed -  I'm planing a trip- i am writing letters to my children,my husband saying good by. i never thought i would get to this point in my life but everything i have done and do is always wrong. my children are 28,25, and 7 years old. i have 3 grand children and don't no how to say bye to them but it is OK they will forget.  i feel there is no other way to just run away from my life except to go and end up where ever i stop. I love my entire family but my older kids have no respect and don't care about anything except themselves not even there kids. my husband is the best i could ever want but he has said he don't love me, our 7 year old she is the best and a very bright little girl i will miss her with my hole heart. My husband will be a good dad to raise her on his own.
i am trying to get things done to prepare like write letters, pack a back pack, and prepare where I'm going - got a place never been there and a small town 
and reminding my 7 year old that i love her a lot.
deebeemartin2 deebeemartin2
46-50
3 Responses May 25, 2012

Here is a thought, wherever you go there you are. Simple words that pack a huge punch.

I only have this to tell you. Yes this might be want you want at the moment. Leaving everybody will not solve your problems. <br />
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Depression is going to follow you where ever you go and it wont stop until it consumes you. <br />
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So I give you this fight for your life, be there for your daughter. Speak to a professional counselor therapist there is no harm in it and the matter of the fact that you go you are fighting so please if you don't do it for yourself do it for your family. <br />
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LIfe is amazing enjoy it. Even if you cant see the light, its there. <br />
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Sincerely a friend

well my letters are done and i got most of the stuff done for my family. on my way out on the june 17- 2012. i no this is the right thing to do i can feel it in my heart it just hurts knowing it has come to this point in my life.