Give Me The Strenght And Courage To Leave My Alcoholic HusbandI have been with my husband for ten years now. I have three boys my eldest is from a previous relationship and the youngest two are from this relationship. He has always had a problem with drinking. He knows and admits he has a problem, he has tried to get help and has seen the doctor and been for councling. Nothing seems to work, Last year he tried to stop and after two days of not drinking he callapsed and had an alcohol withdrawl fit. Which I witnessed and was trumatised by. He has been told that his liver is damaged and he has high blood pressure, he is only 40. The down side is that we live in and run a pub. So he has the alcohol on tap.
I have made numorous threats to leave and did move out for a week. He is currently going through another episode where he is constently drunk and doesnt sober up enough so I can talk to him and make him realise what he is doing. He is never violent but says and does things that I find very embarrassing and I really dont want to be around him. My eldest son is twelve and knows what is happening and normally stays out of the way of him. I stay with him because I hope one day he will stop but I am starting to realise that this will never happen. Because he is the manager of the pub and the accomadation comes with the job it is me that would have to leave. This scares me as I dont know where to go or what to do. I know that as a mother I need to think about my kids but being a single mum to three boys is something I never saw happening. I feel very alone as it not something you can discuss with people you know as its a disease that you feel asamed about and feel you will be judged.