Ready To Walk
I am so glad i found this place...its like reading excerpts from my own life...i've been with my AH for 20 years married for 13 and i am now over the past couple of months realizing that thisis not the way it is soposed to be..i've been with him since i was 14 years old and for years he convinced me that i was the worst person on earth and that i was lucky to have him around...and i brought into it for years believing him completely. How wrong was i. We have two kids 13 and 10 and they already have developed such a hate for him, they now constantly ask me to leave...he is emotionally abusive toward me and the kids all day long everyday...my life as become hell..yet i stay...afraid of what will happen to him...why should i, he dont care about me or his own kids. But i am trying to find the strenght to leave...over the years he has drove all my friends away so i had no one to talk to or to knock some sense into my head..what drives me the most crazy is that i know what needs to be done but cant find it in myself to do it.