I Hate My Drunk Husband
I am so sick of this crazy ride!! I've been married for 20 years and my husband has been drunk for 15 of them. It's only been recently that I've accepted it's not my fault and I can't fix it. I'm taking steps to become financially independent, but I'm not there yet. I hope I have the strength to divorce him when I do have the money. It's going to devastate my kids, particularly my daughter. I'm trying to stay til she's out of school, but I don't know if I can. He's not abusive or anything, he's just totally emotionally absent. I always have to be the responsible one, cause after 5PM he's drinking and of no use to me or anyone else. I just hate living ehre with him, and I want my life to be different. But I also love my children more than anything and I don't want to hurt them. So I'm still here....wishing every night that he would just die in his sleep.