I'm Leaving My Husband And Feel Sorry For Him.

I am 33 years old and have been married for 7 years together for 10. We meet at the nightclub we worked at and started dating. It was crazy we were drunk every night and would get into huge fights all the time. A lot of the fights were both mental and physical.... after the clubs we worked in closed down we were only married a few months, I started another job and he a different one. I left him and stayed with a friend only after being married a few months... I went back because he said he would change and give me the love and attention I needed. (this wasn't the first time I tried to leave) Like every other time I would tell him I was leaving he would go on and on and talk me into staying. Not long after I went back we partnered up with his then boss and his friend from high school and started to travel and make a lot of money. We traveled separately which is why I think it has taken this long for me to finally leave. the money and the business has nothing to do with my thinking that he cheated on my during the club days and that he has major control issues. I have worked and paid all the bills for 10 months and I don't mind at all. I am just missing the love, passion and connection that two people in love should feel. I feel like I am on egg shells all the time. His own mom thinks he thinks he is better than everyone. I feel like I am rambling so let me end now. I am leaving in about a week while he is at work and leaving him a note. I have so much anxiety and I feel so sorry for him but I know I have to do this. I don't want him to try to talk me into staying so I am leaving while he is at work. I dont want anything just my clothes and pictures.. And one last thing I am very close with my family and he is not family oriented at all... Any words of encouragement is greatly appreciated.
thank you,
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2 Responses Nov 8, 2012

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