I Need More Than He Can Give
I married a good man who is not a good husband.
To make a long story short, he loves his farm, dad, and factory job more than me. I am so hurt that he always chooses other people and things over me. I get to be the scapegoat with his family if we ever make an unpopular decision. It hurts a lot.
We have been married 11 years and I've been sad the whole time. I was too stubborn to give up. In the beginning of our marriage, we decided that I would stay home because we wanted children right away. Well, that never happened and he never was keen on the idea of me working outside the home.
Now that I really want to go, I'm kind of stuck. I need the health insurance because I'm diabetic and I have been out of the mainstream work force for 11 years now. I do some writing from home, but it's not at an income level to support myself.
I don't know what I'm going to if anything. I want to leave, but don't know if I can.