I Need A New Life
I have been with my husband for 15 years, the first few years where really good but now it is just awful.
It's so hard to explain, my husband isn't nasty, he doesn't yell or treat me badly, he doesn't question my spending infact he is a near perfect partner but I can't stand him.
We have lived in the same small town, which I hate, for the duration of our relationship and I've always wanted something more. I had a minor break down 8 years ago, my brother was killed in a car accident and I'd just had our daughter not long after. I was devastated... he just didn't/doesn't seem to understand why I was so upset and low.
He then turned down a job offer in my home town and things have been going down hill since then. There have been more job offers and he has not taken one, I think he likes me friendless and dependant on him for all my emotional needs.
I have been diagnosed with major depression and never leave the house. Im not healthy.
I want, no, I need to leave but I have no where to go, I came from a very violent family situation and my mother and sisters don't think my reasons for ending it all are worthy, I guess I sort of feel that way too.
Maybe I just need someone to tell me I have every right to feel this way. I don't want to waste anymore of my life.I need your advice and to hear stories with positive outcomes.
Thankyou for reading my story.