I Want to Go to Sleep and Wake Up Far Away...

I feel so depressed sometimes. For instance, my family is always putting me down. I know i'm not very pretty, or smart, but my family makes me feel even worse about it. I tried out for art school, and i haven't recieved the results yet. but when i told my family, they were all like "well, there are people who are much better than you, and deserve the the position more." can you imagine how that makes me feel? what a way to make me feel confident. every tear i shed, it's because of them. I want to leave my family behind forever.

redryanluvr redryanluvr
18-21, F
3 Responses Feb 25, 2007

How can i do this?

I feel what you're going through. I went through the same thing with my family (especially my brother and father) downing and making fun of all my dreams and choices. I'm now 30 years old with a loving and supportive husband and 3 loving kids that adore their family since I have raised them that way. Trust me...it does get better, but a lot of times you must leave the homestead and just live your life. Have fun, make some good choices, and some bad choices, but learn from it. Let the anger and disappoint fuel you to do better in your life and don't look back on the past, cause it will only make you feel worse about yourself. I've become a loving mother and wife and have been successful due to this. I'm not saying that this work for you, but it for me. Just keep your head up and keep chasing your dreams. Don't let your family or lack of it hold you back. You have to take care of you first.

I can see why. Don't worry you will make it to an art school. Just put more time in practising. They great thing is you can't get dumb from not learning to create art because it is so easy to pick back up. You have your whole life to go to an art school. Keep on trying. Good Luck!!!