How Should I Live This Life Happily?

I have 1 elderly mother and 2 elder sisters with low IQ.

I live in Singapore and I don't feel happy everyday.

My father passed away when I was 10 and my elder brother ran away due to this kind of stressful life. Two of my elder sister couldn't stay on a job for long due to their low IQ. My mother is too old for work and now I feel that I have the responsibility to take care of them.

We thought of getting help from the government but the most they can help is giving us discount on the utility bills temporary, again and again we keep applying for help and eventually they stop helping. They feel that my 2 sisters should be working but what they don't understand is the working society don't accept them and they do not have the right attitude to survive.

I feel that getting a job and working for others will never give me enough $ to take care of the 4 of us so I thought of doing my own biz.

My mother sell away the house to let me have a sum of money to start up my own business. I tookover a fruit juice store and the amount of profit it generated everymonth is enough to pay for our daily expenses, food and stuffs but left with little or no money for saving.

Everyday I have to wake up at 5am, start my biz at 7am then finally end it at 7pm. I find this kind of life too meaningless for me and I feel so freak out to think that I will spent my whole life just to trap in this cycle.

I start to get really tire of this cycle and I already think of quitting but I can't seem to do it.

I'm only 24 and I have so many other things I would like to experience and have fun but I could not.

I keep thinking of running away just like what my elder brother did but I'm also scare to do as I couldn't bear to leave them behind.

What am I going to do when I finally reach the day that I'm too old to work and take care of us?

I believe there are others who are facing their life just as difficult as me but I'm not sure how are they coping. I wish I can speak with these people so that atleast I know I'm not alone.

I need help.
wingedbox88 wingedbox88
22-25, M
1 Response Dec 1, 2012

Thats so hard, I think you need a buisness plan, maybe someone can help you with a grant to expand your buisness and if you can make more money, you can hire help for your family etc. pray and ask God to guide and open a door, praps if you help somewhere voluntarily you can meet people and get ideas and feel like you have more purpose too, maybe there are some chrisitan projects, like helping the poor which could give you a boost. or believe for a rich man to come and look after you!! in my prayers