I Want To Have A Better Life...

I have been through alot in my short time on Earth. Most of it was out of my control, constant abuse and neglect. But some of it was in my control. I have abused different substances including marijuana, alcohol, prescription drugs, as well as food. My family probably has every addiction problem known to man, which has been inevitably passed down to me. I will be the first to admit that these substances are under my control, but control is also one of my issues, since I have had little of it over my own life. I really do want to grow from these problems, into a better and happier person, and be at peace with myself. It is much easier said than done. I just feel like it will never get better, no matter how hard I try. I don't ever feel like doing anything anymore. I wish I could sleep all the time. I know that is probably depression, and I have voluntarily started going to a therapist, which I hope will help. I want to take the right steps to take control over my life and my addictions. I want a lot of things from life, but I thnk the only way to get them is to make sure that I feel like a whole person first. Thank you for reading!
fs9834 fs9834
18-21, F
Jul 26, 2010