I Hate My Life and Want to Be Normal Again

I want my life back. I have suffered from treatment resistant depression for `12 years. I have miss the most important part of my life. I have 2 great kids ( I don't know how I raised them so well) but have missed most of their important events.  I have thought of suicide but then I would only be putting the burden on them and I don't want them to live with that. I am so tired of trying different meds that don't help me. Sorry forgot to tell you I suffer from Panic attacks also. This really is my main problem. I don't drive and I don't leave the house unless I absolutely have to. My husband has been great and he takes me where I need to go. Totally lost in life.
teacher06 teacher06
36-40, F
Aug 5, 2007