I do, but I can't. I have missed so many opportunities. I have let so much go, left with nothing but emptyness inside, and I'm just 17. I'm supposed to be out every night, going to clubs, instead I live a very secluded lifestyle. And it's hard to change your habbits when you are used to doing certain things. And I comfort myself with hope that someday things will magically work out for me. Maybe they will. Maybe they won't, all I know I'm doing everything that is in my power, to become a better person.