Its Just A Phase...

I open door after door hoping to find light behind it; hoping that i will find my dreams turned into reality; hoping i will find a better me reaching out to the not-so-confident and the pathetic me of the present.

It has been a long journey, of which i am yet to look back in retrospect to see if i am choosing the right ones;the right door to my dream world. I know its just a few more doors away....a few more clicks away.....I have to keep at it...for if not all the support, guidance and comfort that my friends and family have given me will be put to shame....

But is it that simple.....?over the last couple of months, I've been thinking that may be I do not have all the time to play what's-behind-this-door-anyway? What if I never find it.........What if there exists no such thing.....

That's when i heard the little spirit inside of me...... I've been hearing it ever since then. This undaunted spirit inside of me has been growing bigger and bigger, so much so that it outweighs all the worldly concerns I had given birth to. It whispered to me...." It matters not if you have enough time , but it sure helps to check how you use it, if ever you intend to...."

So I finally decided to end this mystery-door hunt and carve and paint my own door, a door behind which I know for sure that I can see myself in the bright future that I have always envisioned...

I have taken the first step towards my new life... It wasn't easy.... At times I felt seeking refuge in my past where things were familiar, where I could shrug off this responsibility.... But I know better than to do just that... I know its just a phase...

crimsonkagome crimsonkagome
26-30, F
Dec 9, 2012