I Know It Shouldnt Matter

beauty is skin deep. beauty is in the eye of the beholder. beauty is fleeting. i generally agree with all these statements. but i want to be beautiful still. i have crushes on girls, but sometimes wonder if its just envy. i want to be beautiful inside and out. and knowing that its pretty hard for me to be beautiful on the inside, i wanna be on the outside. but im not. i look like some diseased alien. consumption chic, i think they call it. worried about what will happen if i let myself get old, wont have the youth element, just me. me and my personality. jeez.
piggygoff piggygoff
22-25, F
1 Response Jul 4, 2007

i became obsessed with aging at an early age. when i turned 20 i literally had a 'mid-life' crisis because i felt it was all down hill from there since i could no longer blame my stupid decisions on being a 'teenager' and had to now be accountable and responsible. i locked myself in my apartment for 2 or 3 weeks and cried my eyes out the whole time! the cool thing is ... which is normally not the case but ... i seem to be getting prettier with age!!! figure that one out! you just never know what's going to happen, lady. try to have hope for the future. and one last thing ... i'm POSITIVE you do not look like an alien nor the other thing you said ... whatever that is?!?!?