19.5

My BMI is 19.5.

While that's almost underweight, I still can't stand to look at my body because of all the fat that dangles off it in the most un-flattering ways. I want to lose weight, but I always end up going on an eating binge, usually with fruit, but still an eating binge. I tried to starve myself, but my parents watch over me like hawks, so that's out of the question. Throwing up is just plain disgusting, so there's no way in hell I'm going to do that. I know I sound like I have an eating disorder, and maybe I do, but I need to lose weight, fast! All of my friends are at least 20 pounds lighter than I am. I'm 5'8" and 128.5 lbs on a good day. Can't anyone help me?
AliceinWonderland121 AliceinWonderland121
18-21, F
Jul 21, 2010