Low Self Esteem..
I have no clue when my low self esteem started maybe when i was about 10 when i got fat& all the kids called me fat&ugly.. all i worry about is my looks i fricken hate it! i read this quote earlier "i wonder if anyone looks at me& thinks "i wish i was that pretty" because thats what i think when i look at everyone else" it connected to me, it really made me cry my eyes out... i seriously hate my looks, my pig nose, lazy left eyebrow that isn't the same as the right, my large teeth, my skin color, small lips, big head & i recently cut some of my eyelashes off when i cut my bangs.. i hate my bangs also. I hate being a bit over weight and i HATE HATE my scars on my legs!! I also hate my feet and my large hands also. I have so much flaws :( I wish i was flawless. My boyfriend that i love with all my heart tells me i'm beautiful all the time but i just can't believe it. We broke up in March and he started dating this really beautiful girl a week later, made me feel like crap. We got back together in July & ever since then i feel like i gotta compare to her. She's skinny, light skinned, with no dark scars on her legs or arms shes just SO much better looking than iam. Idk i feel like shes my boyfriends best i can never ever compare to her.. He upgraded then down graded. I HATE THIS :( I just had to let this out i've been keeping this in foreverrrrr!