Struggling With Eating Disorders

hi i am a second year student of 19 years old . i have always had a struggle with my weight, from the age of 16 i developed anorexia it was on and off for about a year and a half at 17 i was put into hospital cause my weight got so low . I gained some weight when i got out of hospital and i ate really healthy and i was proud of myself for doing as good because i thought i wouldn't be able to get through it. I was always a shy person and i hated school i think that's the reason i developed the disorder, i was bullied in school and people just didn't seem to like me i don't know why because i never did anything on them to not like me and i wondered why me?? that's when i decided that i know the only way i could control myself was to lose weight which i know was stupid but it was the only thing that came into my mind i didn't need to lose weight it just happend. My family didn't really know what was going on at the time because i never told them. like i said when i came out of hospital i started to eat really well. but now i am not eating well atall i am eating non stop i dont know why i keep binging its horrible i keep telling mam i need to talk to someone i need help but she wont listin to me. i am 5.1 and weigh 8 stone i am so scared if i put on anymore i just really dont want to i would like to maybe lose just a few pounds im not saying i want to be stick thin again but i just want to be happy with my weight and not feel this way.
xxjoanne xxjoanne
Sep 15, 2012