Fat And Confident....but Dying Inside

Hello all! I'm new here and trying to motivate myself into losing weight...I haven't really tried before, and have a very hard time getting myself motivated, so I figured I'd try getting some advice from others who may have been in my situation.

I'm 25 years old and I weigh 250lbs (roughly, I fluctuate between 235-255lb). I have recently been diagnosed with Celiac disease and have been obese since middle school. Cutting wheat out of my diet alone I'm sure will help with weight loss.. but getting there is the problem.

I know how to lose weight. I know it takes diet and exercise. I know I need to eat lots of fruit and vegetables, proteins and cut out sugars. I know what exercise regimens will work, what exercises tone what body parts, yadda yadda.

I am a single mother of a 4 year old daughter and, although her father is involved and takes her every other weekend, I primarily take care of her by myself (finances, health, school, finding babysitters, etc.). I am a manager for a community residence for adults with mental disabilities, so getting out of work on time doesn't normally happen, and I tend to be mentally exhausted when I get home. My living situation isn't ideal in the least. I rent from my parents (separate house from them), but they allow my brother, my sister, my sister's boyfriend and their son to live in the house with me because they don't have jobs or a place to go. My time is generally spent doing things for my daughter or for work. I have a boyfriend who I see on the weekends.

I am very confident, I know what clothes look good on me, and I have co-workers and others around me who support me in my career and lifestyle. I just can't seem to get to the point where I am able to get out there and make this transition to healthy eating habits and healthy exercise. Could it be my confidence that brings me to this point? On the other hand, when I am alone at night after my daughter goes to bed, or driving to work, I can be the total opposite - low self esteem, feeling horrible about myself because I don't motivate myself. I often ask myself: What is wrong with me? Why can't I be a better person? I feel like I am being unfair to my daughter by letting my health deteriorate this way, letting down those around me, and myself. Sometimes I feel like I don't deserve to be healthy, anyway. I know that my feelings aren't correct, or justified (can't seem to find the right word here...) but they are still there and I can't make them go away. A lot of times I feel like I'm just making up excuses and I should be smarter than that... excuses don't get me anywhere.

It's a struggle for me to find a good in-between. Confident, but aware that there needs to be a change, without being so negative about it.

Thank you for taking the time to read my post, any thoughts and advice are much appreciated!
Ness64 Ness64
22-25, F
3 Responses Jan 11, 2013

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I know it is said that overeating is a choice, but I believe there is more to it than that. To get into the right frame of mind you need some motivation. Some of it can be the deep realisation that one or two little comfort snacks are an ongoing habit that leads to debilitating obesity very quickly; some of it can be regaining sight of how much weight has piled on. I think that joining a group such as Weightwatchers can really help

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