Need Some Support!

First of all, i want to apologize for my bad english, this is not my native languge (not very good with grammar :/)
So, "HI!"..my name is Elma and i'm 20years old. I weigh about 90kg (198lbs)..i say ABOUT because i'm afraid of weighing.
I've struggled with my weight my entire life since I was a little girl(at first i was skinny and "in a sickly manner" and then after i "step" in puberty i start to get fatter and fatter. And here i now..fat, ugly and i'm not feeling very comfortable in my body.
Few days ago i've decided that it's time for some changes, for some big steps and for losing weight..
So i wonder if you can help me. If you can give me some advice or just give me support (trust me, that's what i need). i just need someone who understand me and my problems and who can give me support in my intents...

take care:)
ElmaZenica ElmaZenica
18-21, F
Jan 19, 2013