Why Weight?

For me food is like a legal addiction.  Lately, whenever I am feeling lonely, mad, sad, or bored, I eat.  I hate how I look and the way I feel being overweight, but I can't seem to overcome my love affair with food long enough to be able to lose the weight and keep it off.  I have always been big boned, even as a child, but it didn't get out of hand until 9th grade when I put on about 50 in a year or two topping out at 183lbs at age 14.  Needless to say school, was very hard, all of my friends abandoned me and this lead to a negative view of people and their views of people bigger than them.  Throughout school and the rest of my life I went up and down from 123lbs. to around 185lbs.  I am hoping to never get over 200 but at the rate I'm at now it is quickly approaching.  The thing is I don't mind chicken salads and turkey breast, I like veggies and I don't even mind exercising as long as it's outdoors.  I lose it when something bad happens or my boyfriend orders kfc and I'm having a bad day.  I also tend to quit exercising after a week or two of strenuous workouts and 1200 calories per day to 1 pound weightloss that is gained back if I drink an orange juice.  I can't stick to anything, that's been a major problem in my life all around.
meeksec meeksec
26-30, F
4 Responses Jul 16, 2007

I could have written your story. I won't bore you with the details or offer you any advice- because I'm sure you've heard it all. Just know that you are not alone.

Dieting is Die with a T. <br />
It simply does not work. Sure you can lose weight but its not realistic to give up everything you enjoy forever and when you stop dieting you'll gain it back. It takes a lifestyle change to keep it off. I got up to 309 lbs and wore a size 30 jeans . Food had always been my addiction. If I had a strong emotion it was an excuse to eat -so was boredom. Eating had little to do with hunger. I made a conscious decision that I wanted to lose the weight for me in March. I'm not sure what my current weight is but I have dropped from a size 30 to a size 22 and soon will be in a 20. I have only changed a few things to accomplish this and I NEVER go hungry. 1) I eat only when I am hungry 2) I wait 15 minutes before going back for seconds (usually I will discover I'm no longer hungry 3) I do not buy junk food to to keep in the house but may purchase a single serving size of a desert 4) I rarely eat fast food and 5) I walk at least 3 times a week. If your unable to self motivate, try a program like weight watchers. I have a friend who has lost a lot of weight very quickly with that system

i can underdstand what your saying, its difficult to lose the weight and keep it of especially when there's stress, and people ar just so shallow..<br />
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but don't give up! you can do it, keep telling yourself your beautiful. you may not believe it, but telling yourself that releases good hormones into your system that boosts confidense! apparently. just keep trying and if you fall of the wagon, jump back on! no matter how difficult it is...<br />
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good luck!<br />
sarah<br />

remember that muscles weigh more than fat, so the workouts may not be dropping poundage, but it could be putting on muscle. Tim Ferriss has a post on fat versus muscles that you may wan tto see (http://www.fourhourworkweek.com/blog/2007/04/06/how-to-lose-20-lbs-of-fat-in-30-days-without-doing-any-exercise/) Good Luck with your goals!