Beautiful Fat Me!
You know the girl that's walking down the road and you stick out your head and shout "Jenny Craig's the other way!" That's me. I am obese, not curvy, not pleasantly plump - but obese, fat, overweight and generally the person that you thank God you're not.
I am 5' and weigh 265 lbs - who does that to themselve?? ME I didn't plan to gain weight - When I was a teenager my life goal was not "gee someday I hope I can be as big as cow" I am not in love with my figure, I do not love the skin I am in and I am tired of being different, of skulking past mirrors so I don't have to see the real me.
I don't know about anyone else but I WANT OUT of the skin I am in and I want a redo!! It was easy to gain weight but hard as hell to lose it. I am so tired of people making this assumptions about me and my life - who I am, how I feel, why I am fat.
Oh I could tell you how I fought several diseases, was in a major car accident and how life and stress brought me down but here's the truth, the harsh ugly truth - yes those things happened to me but I GOT LAZY and STOPPED caring and now I am stuck with what I see before me. I am hoping to change it - really hoping to change it. I will be 40 in a few months and would like to show something for it... Like some serious weight loss...
Any suggestions are welcome!!! Honesty is brutal but at least it's honest.