Used to Be...
This is kind of hard for me - this is my first story to share on here.
I'm 30. I'm 5'2" and I weigh anywhere from 170-180...I quit weighing myself, it only depresses me - besides, it fluctuates daily.
I'm new to being overweight....kind of. See I used to be that skinny girl that complained about her pudge when I weighed 115lbs.......what a moron, right? When I got married 4 years ago, I was 103lbs...admittedly a little too skinny. I got pregnant, my husband got sent to Iraq, and I gained 70something pounds with the pregnancy. After the baby came, I got down to about 140. I was still pretty unhappy with my weight, though.
Fast forward to today. My child is 3. I have gained roughly 40 pounds.
I am miserable. I am disgusted by my own reflection. I try to work out and I lose my motivation somehow. I tried a workout partner - she flaked on me. I try dieting - but my husband is skinny and eats cookie dough in front of me.....I'm not blaming him for my weak will. I joined Gold's Gym thinking that if I was paying for it, I would be more motivated to go....worked for a month.
I work full time. I can't take the time out of work to exercise. I am a wife and mother with several animals that need varying degrees of care....I tell myself I will find the time to exercise and I never do.........
I get frustrated with myself over all of this - and sometimes I take it out on my husband....I snap at him when I shouldn't.....I'm just unhappy with me and seem to be stuck in a rut. Unfortunately I see no way out of it......
Please tell me there are others like me out there.