Not Quite Good Enough

When I was 18, I was a size 5. To my family this was still considered chubby. My sister is 6 ft, and wore a size 3. I considered myself fat at 5 ft and 110 pounds. At 19 I had a baby, and gained 64 pounds, instantly they encouraged me to lose it. Now I am over 200 pounds, and feel like I am the most disgusting human being alive. I want to feel good enough, and beautiful still. I am so depressed all my attempts to change have failed. If my family cant accept me, who can?
chickenlip57 chickenlip57
26-30
Jan 9, 2013