I Want to Love Passionately and to Be Loved Passionately
I've come to understand many things during my two and a half years' membership of EP. Every day I log on and read people's stories and am continually amazed at the strength and resilience of the people here.
I think one of the things which I have failed to come to terms with, is how many people there are who crave love and affection, but it just seems to be beyond reach. Men who are looking for a woman who enjoys sex and with whom they could cuddle up at night and feel warm and secure. Women looking for a man who appreciates them, admires them and treats them like a special person. Both men and women searching for someone who matches their desire for sex. Look at the ILIASM group and how many members it has ... nearly seventeen thousand isn't it, last time I looked? So many individuals searching for the same things but destined never to meet.
I sometimes imagine cyber space to be filled with all that longing and despair, like a cloud filling the airways. Why can't these people find fulfilment in their everyday lives? Why is it all going to waste? Why so many mis-matched couples, destined to spend decades wishing and longing for someone to rescue them?
None of us goes around with a badge or a tattoo declaring our frustration and what we are looking for in life. How do we advertise the fact that we are in such need? I certainly don't have a solution. I sometimes wonder if the internet revolution has made the situation better or worse. At least prior to the internet we were under the impression that we were the only ones suffering and did so in lonely silence. Now, we get the chance to tease ourselves with possibilities, usually with folks who live hundreds or thousands of miles away from us. Or we get the opportunity to hear about those who claim to have wonderful sex lives, or look at videos of people doing what we'd all like to be doing for real. Maybe we were better off not knowing. Perhaps it was less frustrating.
Where are all these lonely people in real life? When they log off the internet, where do they go? How do all the frustrated, neglected women find themselves a man and vice versa?
I have no answers to these many questions. I really don't understand how it works. They say that love makes the world go around ... but I'm not convinced that it really does. Perhaps it's the constant search for love that makes the world turn, that keeps it moving.
But don't take any notice of me. I'm just sitting here at 3 a.m., on the internet (of course) and writing down my thoughts as they come into my head. I'll let you know if I think of any answers to my questions.
I think one of the things which I have failed to come to terms with, is how many people there are who crave love and affection, but it just seems to be beyond reach. Men who are looking for a woman who enjoys sex and with whom they could cuddle up at night and feel warm and secure. Women looking for a man who appreciates them, admires them and treats them like a special person. Both men and women searching for someone who matches their desire for sex. Look at the ILIASM group and how many members it has ... nearly seventeen thousand isn't it, last time I looked? So many individuals searching for the same things but destined never to meet.
I sometimes imagine cyber space to be filled with all that longing and despair, like a cloud filling the airways. Why can't these people find fulfilment in their everyday lives? Why is it all going to waste? Why so many mis-matched couples, destined to spend decades wishing and longing for someone to rescue them?
None of us goes around with a badge or a tattoo declaring our frustration and what we are looking for in life. How do we advertise the fact that we are in such need? I certainly don't have a solution. I sometimes wonder if the internet revolution has made the situation better or worse. At least prior to the internet we were under the impression that we were the only ones suffering and did so in lonely silence. Now, we get the chance to tease ourselves with possibilities, usually with folks who live hundreds or thousands of miles away from us. Or we get the opportunity to hear about those who claim to have wonderful sex lives, or look at videos of people doing what we'd all like to be doing for real. Maybe we were better off not knowing. Perhaps it was less frustrating.
Where are all these lonely people in real life? When they log off the internet, where do they go? How do all the frustrated, neglected women find themselves a man and vice versa?
I have no answers to these many questions. I really don't understand how it works. They say that love makes the world go around ... but I'm not convinced that it really does. Perhaps it's the constant search for love that makes the world turn, that keeps it moving.
But don't take any notice of me. I'm just sitting here at 3 a.m., on the internet (of course) and writing down my thoughts as they come into my head. I'll let you know if I think of any answers to my questions.
By:
womaninbliss
Age:
51-55
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Female
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