Someone To Love Me
I looked back over my life only to realize that I have never been truly loved. My past relationships were either based on sex or finance. And I was the one who paid to have him around. I knew deep down inside he did not care, he was just there for the sex and whatever else he could get. I just did not want to be alone, I just wanted someone to love me. I am older now and I just decide that I will not buy love anymore so I will be alone, but inside I cry. I am so lonely. I have prayed and ask God why cant I have someone. I thought there was someone for everyone, but more and more I am believing that he did not make anyone for me. I am at the point where I could just go somewhere and die. It hurts and hurts. I cannot stop this pain I feel inside of me. I just do not understand why God give me all this love that is within me and not give me someone to share it with. I am so scared I will never find that one special person for me. Sometimes I just want to sleep and sleep that is the only time when I am not feeling this pain within me.