Underneath it all......

I know there is one....one being, one man, one soul who is strong enough, brave enough, determined enough.
Who wants to look deep enough.....
....to see....
.........to touch.....
...to sense me and feel me and hear me and taste me.
The 'whole' of me which is buried......underneath it all.

Under the pain......
...the hurt.....
.......the anger and resentments.....
...nestled between the sadness, the fear, the mistrust and the tears....
.....beneath the layers of turmoil and confusion.....there's the good stuff.

Underneath it all, lies a better version of me....the real me....
....the wholesome, good and nurturing me.....
...the joyful me.....the happiest me.....the best me, the loving, caring, sexy me....
.....the real me, the hidden me, the darkest, dirtiest, most wicked version of me......
...the 'I-am-strong-and-you-can't-break-me' version of me.....

Underneath it all, I'm waiting......confident and hopeful.
NotHisBabydoll NotHisBabydoll
46-50, F
12 Responses Feb 15, 2015

I can relate. My wife says she loves me. She may, but she apparently also hates me.

I love this and absolutely totally connect

:)

That would be an amazing journey

You're lucky that you know that for sure. I'm glad you do. ;-)

What a great expression this is! ...hits home on so many levels I couldn't even begin to address this in a response. :)

If or when he arrives,
Do not sabotage it and throw it away

That's what happened with the woman I did this with

She kept saying men don't care and she never wants to be married because she will end up alone like her mother, and love stories are fake nonsense in the movies.
After 3 months of that ****, I had to leave. She just would not wake up, and she still hasn't.

When someone shows up to heal your intimacy starved life, don't expect them to be able to hang around forever while you keep the walls and blindness up. Because YOU have to be there to nourish HIM also, and that stuff puts the other person in a position where they can not feel safe or nourished or assured at all

Remain confident and never EVER give up hope.

Beautifully expressed. We all long for that person who understands the dark places of our soul as well as the bright places of our hearts. To be loved intensely, understood completely.

maybe there are multiple. have you ever thought of that?

He must be a very special individual :)

One very lucky man. :o)