The Ungrateful...

So this one time I was crying and begging to God to clear or clean the aura of this one girl...

I literally went on my knees and begged God to take all the filth away in her aura...

There was this dark patch on the one side in particular, also I saw a shadow entity attached to her....

I imagined clearing her aura and put my hands out in the air to do some "reiki magic" or something... I didn't know how I knew how to do this or what... But it was very emotional for me... This girl wanted to drop out of med school and go on to pursue social work studies... Which is odd since she had the exact same time left to complete med school apart from the practical than she had to study for social work.

I even called her mother saying she should tell her daughter to reconsider... I told her myself that it was a wrong idea, and that she could help people and God would still look over her and guide her... But she was fed up and gave up too soon, and she just wanted to get married and say farewell to helping people... She had great difficulty getting into med school in the first place and had to study other course(s) before she could get in...and once she got in getting her chance, after three years she just gave in....and her mother told me that "I should finish my studies and make a difference" as if implying don't give up like my daughter did.

And the other day I saw her, and she was like completely arrogant towards me, mean, I do not know if she was judging me more or herself, projecting her own disappointment in herself on me or something... Maybe like telling me with it "you were right, I messed up, I should have taken your advice"...maybe she was too hard on herself and placed high standards on herself and her accomplishments, now she is without HER DREAM she worked so hard for and only gave up for something that she thought would be a walk in the park, better than med school or being a doctor BTW, but nothing in life is truly a walk in the park, no matter what you do you would have to suffer...in any career.

She was ungrateful for my "auric cleansing or prayers" [because maybe she didn't even know it happened nor believed in such things to suspect something like that to happen to her] treating me in such an offhand manner when I saw her, she even dyed her hair as her mother said that her daughter was now of the opinion that people think blondes are dumb and brunettes are not, a hair colour she had no problem sporting while studying medicine...sensing an identity crisis there without her DREAM she gave away...no more sure in herself.

My dad gave her the wrong advice and I knew it, he a doctor himself said she should DROP OUT OF MEDICAL SCHOOL and get married and have a family life he never had, which to him outweighed the importance of the greater good at that moment, she was so stupid she listened to him... I told her DO NOT DO IT people out there in the world need people like you, who would doctor the young people when all the old doctors retire etc.

I almost gave up too, but I continued... And I am still forging ahead...

I am just thinking to myself we are NOT here to only love and go make a happy home with a spouse far away from the world, we are here to MAKE A DIFFERENCE and help people, being of service to the whole... There is enough time in Heaven to LOVE...or to sit with your spouse under a tree to forget about the world and sharing your sorrows etc... But to really LOVE here in this world is to SHINE your LIGHT in help and service of many...not just you and your spouse or potential kiddies in the oven, no that would be selfish and you won't be doing what God made you to do on this Earth -- being of service to the greater good in His Honour!!!

So she may be ungrateful for any possible "healing" I administered, and that too made me think: so what if people are ungrateful for what you do for them, the acts of kindness you give out to them...for maybe it is all about God and not you...so what you give for others must be for God, to bring acknowledgment to Him and not seeking it for yourself.

PS many times people want to give up big responsibilities out of selfishness only to kick themselves in the end... Pride, ego and selfishness may cut you off from your true spiritual purpose in life, and consequently the Source... God wants you to shine and be happy... But you cannot shine if you are not willing to shine by doing something good and greater than yourself.

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The best way to find yourself is to lose yourself in service to others.

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I remember she would rather get married than write another test being one step closer to saving someone else's life, all her professors pleaded with her to continue as she was the best in the class but she just said NO THANK YOU I AM DONE, don't you think that is weak, a cowardice response to not acknowledge your full potential being in service to God...

Isn't she ungrateful too? God gave her a chance even an old lady came by at their house one day telling her mother "God still has plans with your daughter her dream is not over" and next thing we hear she gets accepted into med school after many struggles to get accepted in the first place, her parents lost a lot of money and they even had to borrow money from us to pay for med school in spite of their loss they still made means to provide for her studies and she blew it ALL...

Ungrateful little brat -- she didn't know what she had until she lost it settling for something less than what she was really capable of...she just wanted to get married and make babies, and now she tells her mother she wish she had waited before getting married, married life is hard, she was better off being only a student in a flat living off her parents, I think she is jealous too... Since my parents are paying for my tuition and giving me a roof over my head until I get on my own two feet...something she forfeited when lust and pride clouded her eyes... She wanted to become a woman but failed to realize what being a real woman is all about...facing responsibility and not running away!

What would you do? How serious are you about life and a greater good or whole?
indigowitch indigowitch
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Sep 16, 2012