I Just Need Someone I Can Talk to

I wish I could just have a meaningful conversation with someone for once or just talk about random stuff - just really talk. I can't talk 'properly' with anyone around me and I don't feel that I can really trust people to accept me as I am.

I feel so lonely sometimes; even though I do have people whom I can call friends. It doesn't help that I find it frustratingly hard to make new (real) friends. So I came to this website to see: does anyone else feel the same way?

musicspirit musicspirit
18-21, F
26 Responses Feb 9, 2009

Sometimes friends don't know they need friends but keep hopeful you'll find one you may have just did.

Sometimes friends don't know they need friends but keep hopeful you'll find one you may have just did.

This post is like my life. And I definately agree with the mask. I am always the one smiling and laughing but inside I am thinking "do they like me for me, or do they like who they think I am?" <br />
I have never been one to judge people, so if you want you can can talk to me, because I also really want a friend who I can be me around and not have to always have that mask on.

I was just thinking about posting something very similar to this when I found your story.I agree with you,though I am married and you would think I have a permanent sounding board it's not always the case.I joined this site to make a few friends as you said to talk random stuff and smile a little,but it's proving to be very difficult.I don't know I guess I have to go back to losing myself in a good book :)<br />
You are definitely not alone..

hey wanna add u in my frnds list if u need a buddy plz send a message...........sumtimes v hv ppl around but they r just not our kindda ppl...nt da kind v cn share wid.sumtimes vr cool witty funny but still differnt frm othrs....thrs a lack of ppl who really love to listn n share if u need sum1 lyk dat feel free to mesage....if u need a real buddy.......

I feel as u do and wish there were people I could trust to be<br />
A good friend. The loneliness is hard. The work that I do lot of<br />
People can't relate to so I am isolated that way as well as neglected<br />
By my husband. Let's be friends?

I'm sorry your going through this musicspirit. I feel you.

Hi. How are you?

I understand how you feel, im almost in the exact position, i have friends but none of whom i can realy relate or talk to. I keep eveything inside and then let it all out. I talk to people i know arnt there but it keeps me happy, i cant be alone.

I feel the same way. I have friends, but sometimes feel like they aren't there for me when I need them. It would be so nice to just meet new ones that I can just chat with about anything.

Ha where are all these comments coming from o_0? <br />
Thank you DollyDiva :)

Idk how to say but ,, talk to me ,, be my friend ,, and u'll see how is me :)

Yeah, we are trained to wear that mask. But why? It's like armour to protect your true self from being injured. If someone doesn't like your "mask" then that doesn't matter so much, but if your true self is rejected, then you have nothing left. Sometimes, that armour can weigh us down. Compromising and putting on a brave face is all good and well, but as you said, we have to learn when to take of our masks. It's a sad business. <br />
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Thank you for the comment :) I find it interesting that this story has garnered so many comments.

I totally agree with the mask analogy. In this life we are trained to wear that mask. As if all we need to do is smile and everything will be ok. Or to give in and compromise for the sake of harmony. It is easy to lose yourself when you are trained to be like everyone else.<br />
Sometimes it is good to wear that mask, but we all need to learn when to take it off.<br />
Good luck!

I totally agree with the mask analogy. In this life we are trained to wear that mask. As if all we need to do is smile and everything will be ok. Or to give in and compromise for the sake of harmony. It is easy to lose yourself when you are trained to be like everyone else.<br />
Sometimes it is good to wear that mask, but we all need to learn when to take it off.<br />
Good luck!

:) thanks! I was in a bit of a bad mood when I wrote this (my first story here - figures!), but it still holds true.

I know what you mean about meaningful conversations...they beat small talk! I also find it very hard to make friends face to face...but it seems so easy here on EP! That's why I like it here so much!<br />
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If you need a friend, I'm here...I accept you as you are :-)

Random stuff is good. Gotta love the weirdness.

That can be me too Issac. Inside, I will be kicking myself. I don't even know when I began to do this. Was it when I hung around (silent, at the back of the group too) some "friends" who were incredibly judgemental? Did it start when as the silly younger sibling, I wanted approval from my elder brother?<br />
This is the part of me that I'm trying to change. I keep thinking I've changed immensely. Then, when I'm in another one of those situations, I can see that I was kidding myself and that there might always be that little, nagging insecurity that keeps me this way.<br />
This is one of my big goals - to change this way of behaving. <br />
It's ironic in a way. We are all wearing masks, and we all have similar fears, yet despite this, we are kept separate and unable to communicate.

My 'mask' is a big stupid grin. No matter who I'm talking to I always have this stupid smile, and if someone tells a joke no matter how stupid I think it is I will laugh. I don't mean to do any of this stuff, behind closed doors I'm a great guy, but before the public eye I shrivel up and become this stupid 'yes' man. <br />
I keep telling myself that I just need to train my mind to act differently in those situations, and everytime I go out I try so hard to branch off and show a side of me that's real. But in the end, no matter how much I want to avoid it, I end up standing at the back of the group, following them around so that at least I'm not alone, and still as quiet as a mouse.

I've written a poem about something like that :). Only yesterday.

Thats how it is with me as well. :( Except in my case, the reason I cant talk properly or from within me is because I'm an entirely different person in public. I wear masks all the time, wherever I go.

Damn that must suck :( *hugs*<br />
I have actually talked to my parents a couple of times, and your right. In the right situation/mood it does help and they do understand, which is no mean feat seeing as I don't always get along with my dad.

I totally know how you feel, I just moved to a new school. Away from all friends. :(<br />
My only real friend moved to another country.<br />
Just to let you know-your NOT alone.<br />
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What I sometimes do find helpful is talking to your parents. I know it sounds a bit weird at first but, when in the right mood, the tend to really understand.<br />
Just sit and talk for a while.<br />
Hope this helps.

We all are wanting someone to talk too. The trick is finding those who are willing to listen to those who need to talk, plus give back a supportive, honest option back and not just BS.<br />
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Feel free to contact me if you want to talk.

That's exactly it. It's as if you can be around people but still not really connect and you end up being alone anyway. Also, people can be so two- faced which is why I stopped hanging around with my old 'group.'