Out To Family But I Can't Seem To Make Gay FriendsI have just turned 33 and I live in the north west of England. I had known I was gay from about the age of 14 and had my first gay experience when I was 15 with a guy in my glass at school. It was a on our way home from school, and we took a short cut across some fields, where we ended up kissing which lead to more.
That was my only experience until I was 23 as I used to fight my feelings towards men. I guess you could say I was trying to deny that I was gay, which was very difficult. When I was 23 I met a guy in a bar and we started seeing each other, as I was not out I kept the relationship a secret but this had a strain on the relationship with the guy I had met as he wanted everyone to know about us being together. We ended up rowing all the time and eventually split.
A few months after I was sat in my parents living room, and my mum just asked me if I was gay. Which I just burst out crying and said yes. She was great and the day after I asked what made her ask me. She said because she had never seen me dating girls. She ended up telling my dad which I was so scared, but he was great too. Sadly my dad passed away the year after, but it gave me comfort knowing that he knew the truth about me before he died.
I have straight friends, but they are very homophobic and I hate them for this, and I can not tell them about me. Well part of me says I should and if the reject me they are not true friends, but the problem is the town I live is small and there are a lot of anti gay people, and I am concerned of my family getting hurt my these small minded people,
I have tried for ages to make gay friends, I have been to bars, tried finding people online, so I guess I have joined this site in the hope of making some on here, both from the UK and from other countries. I mean you don't have to see the person to be friends, just someone to talk to from time to time.
Well that is my story, I am sorry I have gone on a little, and if you have got this far I thank you for reading it.
sscoobiestu 31-35, M 9 Responses 2 Sep 14, 2012