I Just Want To Understand

All my life I wanted to make my mom proud, always putting her first... I went thru hell living with her but I never judged her never blamed her, I knew **** was hard and I knew I couldn't get everything I wanted and that's why I never asked her for ****. I don't know how but I was always able to fix my problems without getting her involved. When I was a freshman in high school I started turning into a rebel... I wanted to know what was out there meet new places meet new people but I was always so afraid of what my mom would say so I just would stay home and keep it to my self. My mom met this Guy back in the middle of my 8th grade and she changed completely .... always putting him first, everything had to involve around him... I didn't mind, I mean she looked happy nd that's all that mattered, right.?

He then tried to tell me what to do like if he was my father and I wouldn't go wit that **** so my mom and me would get in fights.. I just couldn't understand why she would put him before me.. that's when I started to change. I started to turn into this cold hearted girl. I wouldn't trust noone and show noone my feelings ...

Some years later she found out he was lyingto her and left him. In a way I was so happy because he always made her feel insecure about her self...

Today, I skipped my classes to spend the day with her. We are all good talking looking at clothe nd stuff for my apartment and then she gets the text message ... he needed a ride to the bank. She tells me and says "let me borrow your car, I'll be back for you later." I didn't say nothing, just smiled, handed her the keys nd said I'll be right here.... now I'm at this stupid store feeling dumb as hell...


china25 china25
18-21, F
Sep 14, 2012