Words Can't Express My Feelings

My boyfriend is in the Army. This is obviously a long distance relationship. But this weekend is the first weekend that I'm not able to communicate with him at all. We can't Skype, talk on the phone or even text. He is going to be able to talk again tomorrow and I am really looking forward to it. I have realized that he is such a vital part of my life. I literally can't live without him. I am crazy about him. This morning I stayed in bed much later than normal simply because I knew if I was able to fall back asleep I'd be able to have another dream about him. I am trying to figure out a way to really explain to him how much I care and how much I love him but I don't know what to say. I mean we tell each other we love each other all the time but I feel like that isn't enough. Any advice?
kiki93luv kiki93luv
18-21, F
2 Responses Jan 12, 2013

Thank you. Sadly, my soldier is no longer a part of my life.. I don't really want to elaborate why is such a public way. But I did have a life outside of him. I have close family, my best friend and her son who is basically my nephew live right next door to me, Plus I am in college full time and I work. That is excellent advice though. While he was gone that weekend one of my good friends got me to go to a party which really did help.

First I want to say that I completely understand your feelings they are valid. Being in love is the best feeling in the world and being away from the one you love can be painful and difficult. Having said that I think its important for you or anyone in a relationship to have a full life outside of this one. Im not saying go to bars everynight or anything like. Are you in school or have a job? Something that gets you out of bed everyday and keeps you going. Other friends, family, hobbies? Its really important that you have alot of options of things to do not to just keep busy. Because more then likely even if youre busy youre going to think about your soldier and miss him. Work on whatever goals you have educational or career wise because its important for any young lady to be self sufficient and have more going for herself then her man. Not saying you dont. And believe me im 32 with kids and 2 jobs and I love my soldier and miss him and think of him everyday but i have to get up everyday and do my own thing and be happy anyways. Just knowing we love each other and were both working so hard makes me feel connected. He inspires me to not give up on days that im tired and feel i have nothing left. Because I know on days that he feels like that he doesnt have the option to take a break. Or sleep when hes tired.