Lack Of Edification
Although communicating with non-spiritual people is great and a major part of life. I need people that I can relate to. I don't have any edifying moments. My breakthroughs, discoveries and important spiritual moments are celebrated by making a note of the break through on my note pad...nothing more. How wonderful it would be to talk to someone that has experienced moments like this. And how amazing would it be to meet someone who not only could understand what it's like to have a moment like this but maybe also benefit from my breakthroughs as well...and vise versa. I dream of having a deep intellectual conversation about spiritual concepts in which both of us are exchanging and expanding upon each others input.
It's hard not to feel alone sometimes. I understand that this is exactly where God wants me to be though and that this has to be part of my spiritual training, but there are times of weakness (like right now) and I allow my emotions bring me to a state of unhappiness.