I Really Want To Move On.....

Had been in a relationship with man for 18 years (1992 - 2010) and he had left without saying word nor explanation to return to his wife; he just stopped calling and visiting.... When I called on him 8 months later, he claimed he was "charmed" by black magic that I thought was absurp. .20 months had passed and does not look like he is coming back despite saying that he will when his family matters are solved. I want to leave this sad place and to find my happiness elsewhere but I can't, I stuck here with a 79 years old mother that resulted in me not being able to go anywhere all along or else I would not have been stuck with such a loser too. I have been here all my life, feeling more and more depressed as time goes by....I am not young, already 45, not many more good healthy years to pursue the many things that I have always wanted to do but couldn't as I have always been the one who has stayed behind to care for my mother. Crying to myself more and more every day feeling that I am trapped, day in day out doing the same old thinga, staying in the same house eversince I was born.
fiboci fiboci
2 Responses Jun 14, 2012

It's your life, not your mother's. Hope you got out?

I really feel for you. You are so young to have to look after your mother. I am 45 going on 46 but never think time is runnning out. I am going through a divorce and if you read my stories you'd see what being away from my daughter will mean to me. BUT I will never give up on true love. If I can find someone to love and hold even if it's only for the last 5 years of my life, I can leave content. It's not about quantity but quality fiboci. Don't forget that. Hey, I am always here if you want to chat ok?