Ok I'm just going to vent. It's so hard trying not to think about him. It's been a year so why am I still hurting? He was my first kiss and everything but he rejected me. I still have never had a boyfriend. I don't think I ever will. I had very little self esteem to begin with but now it's gone. I sleep all day and have no motivation to do anything, I can't even eat.
I keep going over the things he said to me in my head. I remember he told me I was pretty but how can I believe that when he doesn't want to be with me? I've felt ugly all my life. I'm uninteresting, socially awkward and clingy. I feel like he still likes me because he likes my facebook status updates a lot. I wish I was brave enough to unfriend him. I want to text or call him but I don't want to keep stroking his ego either haha he has had enough of that from me already. :(
batjokes batjokes
22-25, F
1 Response Jan 7, 2015

Sad right now. Someone please respond?

"Used us to make themselves feel better" so true.

Same here. I have a small group of friends and I can tell one of them likes me but I'm just not attracted to him. I feel like a horrible person for saying that, my mom tells me I should "open my heart" to him but I don't want to have a relationship with someone I have no real feelings for. But I guess, no boyfriend at 22, I'm in no position to be picky.

The guy I like said it was "too soon" for him.
So I'm guessing he can't stop thinking about some girl who broke his heart, he's not willing to accept love from someone who isn't her. Sounds a lot like your situation doesn't it?