Dammit...Enough Already!

I really thought that I was getting over certain things, but a recent conversation showed me how wrong I was. I was offered a shoulder and an ear andI refused because I couldn't cope. And, I can't even bring myself to regret not 'opening up.'

I think a part of me still thinks that if I don't talk about or just allude to the parts that I'm allright handling, it won't be real...that those things didn't happen. Or, if they did, that they didn't happen to me and my family. I really want to be able to move on. I never thought it'd be so hard.

vinividivici21 vinividivici21
22-25, F
5 Responses Aug 17, 2008

Yes, yes it does..

Yeah...it just sucks. :(

The truth ******* hurts sometimes. Some things you never really get over though. You think you are, then something happens and you realize you haven't... and that maybe you never will be... so you just kinda start to deal with the fact that you might not be able to completely get over it. If that makes sense...

I know...I just thought I *had.* The truth is sometimes hard to deal with and this just blind-sided me.

If you're not ready to move on, you're not. You can't force yourself to.