The End of a Bad Nightmare

I have been through abuse,neglect and just plain **** on most of my life.I had no child hood and grew up the best I could.I should be bitter and hate full for all I have endured but it has made me a stronger and more loving person.I ahve a long way to go but at least I can say is that I am working on making me a better person for me!I am coming out of a shell and I'm finally not afraid anymore!

ashland64 ashland64
41-45
5 Responses Mar 31, 2009

My father mentally and emotionally abused me and now really doesn't want to be in my life much at all. Sometimes I just start breaking down and crying abt it. Isolated myself from others and never spoke my mind because I never valued myself and thought no one else did either. It has affected my entire life and no one really cares. thanks for your story. it's good to know other people have been through the same things.

it took me 31 years to get to this point but i finally stop being so angry and holding a grudge. The people who did me wrong were living their lives as if nothing and here i was angry hatefull and all messed up. No enough was enough they were not going to have one more secound of my life. Today i still have some downs but i just remind myself of the future possibilites and get right back on track to living my life.

Thank you for the support, I may take you up on that offer once I feel comfortable enough to talk about it with someone else besides my fiance. <br />
Why is it that subjects like these are so hard to talk about?

There are so many different kinds of abuse out there it is unbelievable how much it can affect a person's life. I would know, I've been abused as well, though not physically. I was abused verbally. I still have a hard time believing that I am worth anything at all. <br />
Don't give up though, I'm so glad to hear that you're coming out of your shell, you've inspired me to work on doing the same. THANKS! :D

It's good to hear that, i wish i could say the same, i dealt with abuse at a young age and it still affects me.<br />
My shell is still firmly in place.<br />
maybe i can break it as well. :)