Must Keep Trying
I have suffered from acute shyness for as long as I can remember and it has held me back in many areas of my life - education, career, friendships, romantic relationships. Now I am in my late twenties and I do feel that life is passing me by and that I have missed out on so many experiences other people take for granted. I think that is must be difficult for people who are not shy to understand how shyness affects a persons actions and behaviour, and that many shy people are just seen as rude, aloof, odd etc. I have been called all of these things and each time it damages my self esteem a little more and exacerbates the problem. I feel that there are many more shy people than there appear to be in the world, but because we are all so shy we never meet! I have tried counselling, prescription drugs, hypnotherapy, CBT and psychotherapy (which I think was more damaging than it was helpful) and as yet to no avail. I sometimes feel as if I am trapped in my own prison and the only thing that keeps me going is the thought that one day I will get out, I think that if I lost that hope I would have nothing left to live for.